The reality is our brain is constantly processing thoughts, constantly making connections. It does, as you point out, shift its shape according to your fear. Simple things you might want to try—like eating fresh fruits, veggies, avoid stress, get rest and take vitamins is also important. It’s making good me constantly doubt OCD and False memories and keep ruminating which makes everything so much more vivid. Horrible! False memory OCD. The past few days have been amazing. I was doing okay but now because of what’s been said I’m now panicking that my memory of not doing anything bad is false, when I was sure that I remembered going away from the person. That means not actively grappling with the false memory, just letting it come into your head, acknowledging it and then letting it go. the false memory felt so real , and it makes me believe it . Do try the crisis centre if you think they could help. So you think I should just ignore it? Try to eat meat and veggies, stay away from alcohol, caffeine. The false memory has hi-jacked the brain, it follows you day and night. But its my first... mind. The images feel so real but not like it was me. Plus, i re-enacted getting into position, but I still don’t know what comes after. They enjoy hurting people. I can think I am a multi billionaire if I want, but unfortunately that’s not true. There’s just one thing I can’t shake, and it’ll be the last time I ask, in this memory I can remember myself feeling something. I really know how you feel. That means that just the act of reviewing a thought reshapes the details or feelings of the memory in small ways. I don’t remember any other feeling I can just see myself pulling away and my head tells me because I felt something. Im very concerned I may have done something totally against my true character. It's the ruminating that makes you doubt. I just want my life back. Lol there’s no winning. A therapist or psychiatrist? I don't think that you are deluded beyond what OCD does to you. It's also possible to have sensations of things that aren't physically present. It certainly is possible. Little to no anxiety and no rumination. There’s details I WOULD remember but I don’t, so it must be false. Keep in mind this was before the abuse by my cousin was disclosed to my parents. it just came in to my mind out of know where . Don't be afraid of being thought insane. It may feel real, but that's the anxiety making it into something it isn't. That’s the only thing that feels real. The sort of people who ruminate about doing harm are the least likely to actually harm anyone. And most people with OCD do in fact have some overt compulsions such as these. That's one of the things OCD does, making false thoughts. I have those sort of confusing false memories sometimes and don't know what to do about them either. Content on HealthUnlocked does not replace the relationship between you and doctors or other healthcare professionals nor the advice you receive from them. Thank you for your constant kind words, it helps so much! It felt so real but not at the same time. Is it really how I remember it?' That's great. Try no sugar or low carb until your appt. Be honest at the assessment, don't hold back. I'm afraid OCD does come and go. I’ve looked back over the stats for the year and still right out in front is the post I wrote on Pure O and False memory OCD. They haven't really believed it in their rational minds, only in their OCD minds. I know they’re false, I’m getting so much better but everytime a new detail “resurfaces” I believe it straight away and I find it so difficult. One thing I don’t get which gives me hope is this “feeling” constantly changes. And, again so much a sign of OCD: there is lack of any capacity for inhibition, which means: the brain areas responsible for separating the true and the not-true, and those capable of suppressing such a meaningless fear, can’t put any brake on it cropping up again and again. My OCD has fixated on this now and it’s bringing all the anxiety back. Hey all, I need help. Is that how false memories work? Because our memories are often fragmentary, because we don't always remember everything in the order it happened, this leaves a lot of room for doubts. Each case of OCD is different, and you can have more than one of any type of OCD. Yeah that makes sense. So, when I was 14-15 I hit puberty (late bloomer) and my use of porn increased. I feel this confirms my worst fears and confirms all the memories are true because I should know if it was or not. So after my mental health assessment, I was told to go to my GP to talk with them about medication, I was talking to a practice GP who had 6 weeks till he was a fully qualified. It's a difficult trick to master, but it helps if you can just allow them to be, without fighting them or pushing them away or struggling. but that could have been said in regards to whatever we were fighting about at the moment as she tends to be very dramatic. It’s one of those things I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy, if I had one. That's just how to defeat OCD. I am 100% sure my mom never abused me (only discipline that was physical was a slight slap a couple of times) however I am not obsessing over a memory that I am pretty sure is real. Talk to friends, family, or maybe a church/school counselor too. So the meds didn't work for you? I never questioned it, everytime a detail came up, I believed it without question. Although OCD thrives on doubt, you can still learn to manage to deal with the doubt. But the point is to recognize that and deal effectively with it. It's normal for a teenager to think about sex a lot. That's just how OCD acts. However real it feels, just remember that your mind is playing tricks. Try to ignore it. It doesn’t make sense either. But now, thinking back I rememeber al this pretty much started as a “what if” I can’t remember exactly but is that possible? And this is an overactive imagination playing tricks on you. The thing with this memory is it constantly changes, that’s never happened with a memory before which is really weird. That's great that you're feeling better. I am in therapy, on meds, etc, but it is not always 100% effective. I tend to have real event OCD situations due to being sexually abused by a cousin as a child. I wish I knew what could help, but I hope that a bit of feeling less alone will do something. And then OCD makes it escalate until you actually believe it! Sometimes it feels like I’m losing my sense of reality, because I can no longer discern between my memories and my obsessional thoughts which have ruminated in my mind so long that they feel real. It means remembering something you actually did do and obsessing guiltily over it. It’s always hard in the morning. Personally I can’t wait to start CBT and I will look into self help books. People have all sorts of OCD obsessions. Just let them be. But Paller is cautious about extending his laboratory results to controversies surrounding "false memory ... and some real memories are not so vivid ... indicate that the memory is real. Kept thinking I had done something awful and felt tsk terribly but I hadn’t and I felt plagued by the fear I had! Part of my OCD is wondering if I should stop talking to people because of things such as this. I’ll try, I’ll just push it away. Don't think that your OCD has to be like anyone else's. It's fear that makes this false memory stick in your mind and convinces it that it is real. Are the thoughts true? But, then my mind gets all irrational and tells me I’ve forgotten and when my OCD wears off all the details will come back:/. I do have moments where I think "no that didn't happen" but other times I can envision the entire thing. Is this just my OCD taking advantage of the terrible mental state I was in at the time, or was I so distracted that I actually did this? So, false memories (such as thinking you put your sunglasses on your desk when you really left them in your car) really may occur more for people with OCD. From false feelings, false fear. It's just so difficult to ignore them when they are making a noise in your head, so to speak. It goes off frequently, although there is nobody breaking in! I feel like if I don't tell him exactly what was said some how I cheated on him which I know makes no sense but the feels are so real. The emotional centres in the brain are very powerful, and it can be difficult to ignore them. At the moment the fear mechanism in your brain is firing on all cylinders and reinforcing a false memory. Having OCD means that random thoughts, like anyone has, take on an importance they don't actually have. Can I have underlying fears Cus I never consciously approached or thought of these fears before really, just one of those things that anyone are scared off. I’ve never even had sex so I don’t even know. I told the GP all the details about my OCD and he confirmed it’s OCD, and said he’s read a lot about it and knows about mental health. So, when I was 14-15 I hit puberty (late bloomer) and my use of porn increased. The imagination can be very powerful, and things that aren't real can appear real. I just seem to believe anything I’m told when OCD is involved. It's good that your GP is quite well informed about OCD, but that doesn't mean he is an expert. I never felt scared or ocd of harming anyone, I just imagined sex 24/7. The false memories created will be different for each individual and this depends on what troubles the individual most. False Memory: How Memories Form and Why So Many May Be False So don't think you're back at square one. I think my problem is I don’t remember NOT doing it so in my head it must’ve happened, which is irrational. So you think I just need to keep reminding myself it’s a false memory? I hadn't heard of 'real event' OCD before you brought it up, but when I googled it I knew what it is about. So these false memories may feel very 'real', but I think you know they are false. Is that possible? Maybe about 15-16 years ago i was having a very bad fight screaming with my mother. I still do not think this was done out of some sexual gratification like my cousin did (opposite sides of the family) but it started to bother me recently. Does porn play a massive part in it? He was actually well informed about OCD, he wanted to give me medication to monitor whether it helps or not but the other GP said I needed a letter from the crisis center telling them what medication they want me to have. Yeah, I’m feeling a lot better today. I’m thinking of going to my local crisis walk-in center but I’m terrified. I couldn’t explain the “feeling” if I tried but it makes the memory feel real. Take care. Thank you Sally, I’m going too. I just don’t understand my OCD. Is it possible my false memory is an OCD delusion? Yeah I can understand that: anxiety is such a hard emotion. Feeling Guilty About Past Events: ‘Real Life’ OCD | The Mighty One thing that’s lingering is I tried to reenact my memory stupidly and the anxiety kicked off and it made me feel like the memory is true. Real rapists don't ruminate about it, they don't regret it or feel remorse, and they try to pin the blame on the victim. It makes it all feel so real. None of these things are you. These resul… I agree with that, rapists wouldn’t feel guilty especially not instantly after doing it and they wouldn’t constantly ruminate. Because I’ve got a thought “you only live once” and I feel like I thought it about this memory but I’m not sure. I don't think there's any rule about how quickly or slowly they form. Yeah you’re right it does keep changing which should give me my answer but it’s difficult to convince our OCD. I don't know about porn having anything to do with it. A lot of people use porn, and some porn is harmless! Yeah that makes sense! I know that now. Just tell myself it isn’t real? It feels so real, even though I don't see why I would ever do that's what leads me to suspect it is a false memory. This article from a psychotherapist called Jon Hershfield explains that, “The event can be something that actually happened (but over which there is some confusion) or it can be something completely fabricated by the mind.” It doesn't. I couldn’t describe it, but I looked online for what the feeling could be when I believed it to be true, it kept changing to fit my fear. I think my “what if” is what started mine off. I knew of porn much younger at like 10. And the more the person thinks about it, the more real and detailed the false memory feels. and she lifted up her shirt and I saw the bottom of her breasts. I have OCD and a complex personality disorder. Quick update, I’m feeling amazing; I’ve finally been able to ACKNOWLEDGE that all this is OCD. But often what we have come to call “False Memory OCD” is not so much about the presence of false memories but about the need to be certain about the truth or falseness of our thoughts. In fact, we all have weird thoughts, but OCD insists on trying to give them meaning and holding onto them, instead of just letting them drift off. However, for many with OCD, especially those struggling with any of the Pure O variants, their response to their obsessions is more likely to be i… I was getting so much better now my hope is gone. I don’t know. Keep in mind I am not sure exactly what she said although I am leaning towards "is this what you want?" Please help, mentally dying. Having OCD is not the same as insanity. I have no idea why she would do something like that, but then again people do a lot of stupid things and say a lot of stupid things when that angry. It might help to get professional help. For example, I've found myself watching, say, a cooking programme where someone squeezes and lemon, and suddenly I can smell lemon! I’ve had a friend go to a crisis center and it was the best thing for them. Also porn stars often have bodies that don't represent what most people are like. The worst part is when I’m just relaxing it feels like my body is use to the anxiety and panic and it still feels there which is so confusing to me. A subreddit dedicated to discussion, articles, and images regarding OCD. How fast can they form? But my mind says “what if you tried” or something and changed your mind. There is no text book standard to measure yours against. Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and what this subreddit is! It sounds very much to me like a memory of a memory. But when it comes to remembering the important things, like a cherished childhood event, our memories are accurate and trustworthy, right? Even writing that fills me up with anxiety as I couldn’t imagine hurting anyone I’m going to see a Therapist on the 11th of this month so I hope that helps! Are there any professionals you could talk this over with? Every detail which, to me, I’d remember changes like, how long it was, what it felt like and what she was wearing or how she was lying. This is because I remember looking at her and not doing anything but I also remember worrying about her being pregnant, now I’ve never had sex and we’ve since broke up, but everytime I think of this memory it’s like I’m watching myself do it, It doesn’t feel like me doing it. But OCD can put false memories in your head. I seem to recall her saying something along the lines of "is this what you want?" Maybe I can help you. This just filled me with anxiety and what ifs. Again, I wouldn't say that 100%, but I DO think you can generalize and say that at least 99% of the time if it feels like OCD, it most likely IS OCD. As there is no such thing as 100% when it comes to these false memories (although I am 100% I was abused by my cousin), I am 99.99999% sure that there these two people did not abuse me. They get fed up if you don't pay them attention and go away of their own accord usually! There are lots of cautions about prescribing them for teenagers. Okay, thank you so much. Like I can physically feel my face flushing. There’s too much fear surrounding it and I’m just terrified. And the more you think about these false memories, the stronger they become and the more you think they're real. And that doesn't sound like you. When I’m using logic it’s easy but the doubts come back to me which is so hard to overcome. My OCD does sound like other people’s OCDs. I don't know that I would totally ALWAYS go along with this, but some therapists tell their OCD clients this rule of thumb~~ If it FEELS like OCD, it IS OCD! Also, I read about “real event OCD” and now I feel like my memory is a Real Event. And it gave me a relief and it’s now evolved I tried to have sex? So I wanted you all to know that I haven’t forgotten about you and hopefully the yoga will come together with this blog to give me more tools to help us all in conquering OCD completely. I don't know what to say that will be helpful to you in this except that you're really, really not alone in this. Can OCD link things up falsely? I think fragments are real and I must’ve confabulated the memory to which I thought it happened. I had thought of it before and didn't really think about it much besides maybe that it was a strange thing to do or so. CBT can really help you process these little doubts and allow you to move on. There's nothing intrinsically wrong with a vivid imagination. Thank you. Im very concerned I may have done something totally against my true character. Having OCD certainly does make you link things up falsely. I never really had this problem when it came to my mother until recently. We have a very nice relationship and I don't want my holiday spoiled because I am in torment about this. There is a theory on memory, that says every time we retrieve and “relive” a memory, we change it! If little details are added, acknowledge them and then get on with things. I have false memories which feel so tangibly real. It might be better for you to talk to an OCD therapist or a psychiatrist about it. Those who had been influenced by the false memory avoided the egg salad and gave it lower ratings than the other participants who had not developed the false memory. Thoughts can, and do pop in to our mind seemingly out of "nowhere" all the time. Yeah I get that, I’m definitely the exact opposite of wanting to hurt someone, let alone rape someone. The brain is very plastic, in that it can learn to do different things, or learn how to do things in a different way. In my head, I feel as though all scenarios I re-enacted are false but the doubt is there, what’s your advice on that? 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